So, it has been a while since I posted anything on any site. There are a few reasons for this, but mostly, I just have to much going on, well going wrong, in life to keep up with stuff. I need to start focusing on the future instead of worrying about the past. I want to buckle down and build something of my life. One of the things that I feel I need to do in order to handle this is step back/leave the furry fandom.
Since I joined the fandom in 2008, my life has changed a lot, some good and some bad, but I grew stronger through all of it. But as the years have gone on, I am slowly realizing I focus to much on being the person others see me as, instead of who I am. I have lost track of the inner me that makes me happy. But what does this have to do with the fandom. Well it has a little to do with the fandom, through the fandom i found my inner self, but also lost it at the same time. I need to step back and grow into myself before I am ready to be part of a fandom where every can be themselves. I feel like I am deceiving the fandom by showing a false face of myself. I also just plain don't like seeing or hearing about the drama 24/7 from friends, not while I am in this weird emotional state.
I love the fandom and all the good experiences that it has brought. But I have some serious "growing up" to do. I need to figure out my own life and get things back on track. So what does this mean for all my friends. Well seeing as how almost all of my friends are in the fandom, I am not sure what is going to happen. I may keep in touch, I may not. We may chat and meet up or we might not see each other for years. I truly dont know how this is going to effect our relationship. But I love all my friends, I always enjoy hanging out with all of you, and I know how much all of you support me. I want to be the best I can so I can support you too.
So, I am not sure if this is going to be a break, or a straight up quit from the fandom. But seeing that it is the biggest distraction on my mind and the source of many past issues, it is one step in figuring my life out.
This means, I will also probably be a lot less active online, if I am online at all.
Thank you for reading this little rant/journal of mine,
Alex
Monday, December 2, 2013
Friday, November 1, 2013
Bloodlines History Sneak Peak
Just a Little history lesson for the game on how the world came to be.
The Bloodlines universe has existed for millions of years. At the beginning there was one race called the Eltakai. The Eltakai were a mighty and noble race. They watched over the universe as it expanded and kept peace between all the growing races and species.
The universe at the time seemed neverending to the Eltakai, and they tried deeply to discover all of its secrets. For thousands of years they explored and experimented trying to learn what made the universe tick. One day an Eltakai Scientist made a discovery.
He discovered that the seemingly magical energy that formed the universe was flowing within the blood of the Eltakai themselves. It seems that they were created from the same energy as the entire universe. But the scientist made yet another discovery in his lifetime. Not only did the Eltakai have this life energy within them, they also had a chaotic negative energy as well.
With this knowledge the Eltakai began to prosper, learning to harness the life energy of the universe to their advantage. Until one day they were just gone. Not a sign of them remained. All that was left in the world were the other tribes the Eltakai had raised from the soil. The life blood flowing in all of them as well.
The Bloodlines universe has existed for millions of years. At the beginning there was one race called the Eltakai. The Eltakai were a mighty and noble race. They watched over the universe as it expanded and kept peace between all the growing races and species.
The universe at the time seemed neverending to the Eltakai, and they tried deeply to discover all of its secrets. For thousands of years they explored and experimented trying to learn what made the universe tick. One day an Eltakai Scientist made a discovery.
He discovered that the seemingly magical energy that formed the universe was flowing within the blood of the Eltakai themselves. It seems that they were created from the same energy as the entire universe. But the scientist made yet another discovery in his lifetime. Not only did the Eltakai have this life energy within them, they also had a chaotic negative energy as well.
With this knowledge the Eltakai began to prosper, learning to harness the life energy of the universe to their advantage. Until one day they were just gone. Not a sign of them remained. All that was left in the world were the other tribes the Eltakai had raised from the soil. The life blood flowing in all of them as well.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Bloodlines RPG
Bloodlines is my current project that I have been working on. Over the last month or so I have been taking notes and getting all the small details in place and now I am at a point that I am ready to say that this is a thing.
Bloodlines is a D20 based tabletop game. It is a more modern setting and I am drawing a lot from pathfinder for my inspiration. I currently have most of the stuff written up in my note book and am in the process of trying to write a rough copy of an official game rules book.
The basis behind the game is mainly that all races have different percentages of members with magical abilities. So each town has a different chance from the previous of someone being able to find magic items or a healer. Also the magic system I changed in the game in a way that is not yet complete. But I believe it to be fully unique compared to any other games I have played.
The game takes place in a fantasy universe and is up to the imagination of its players to fill in the blanks. It can be played for endless hours as long as the GM allows it.
Currently I am running a play test with my Girlfriend and her cousin. It is going well, but I am learning what needs to be tweaked and balanced as far as classes and items. So hopefully by next week I will have my rough draft and by next month I will have a play tested version out and updated.
Most likely I will be hosting the game books and materials on my Google drive for now and sharing as it is wanted for others to play. That way updates are instant.
That is all for tonight, Keep an eye out for the official game launch coming very soon I hope.
Bloodlines is a D20 based tabletop game. It is a more modern setting and I am drawing a lot from pathfinder for my inspiration. I currently have most of the stuff written up in my note book and am in the process of trying to write a rough copy of an official game rules book.
The basis behind the game is mainly that all races have different percentages of members with magical abilities. So each town has a different chance from the previous of someone being able to find magic items or a healer. Also the magic system I changed in the game in a way that is not yet complete. But I believe it to be fully unique compared to any other games I have played.
The game takes place in a fantasy universe and is up to the imagination of its players to fill in the blanks. It can be played for endless hours as long as the GM allows it.
Currently I am running a play test with my Girlfriend and her cousin. It is going well, but I am learning what needs to be tweaked and balanced as far as classes and items. So hopefully by next week I will have my rough draft and by next month I will have a play tested version out and updated.
Most likely I will be hosting the game books and materials on my Google drive for now and sharing as it is wanted for others to play. That way updates are instant.
That is all for tonight, Keep an eye out for the official game launch coming very soon I hope.
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