Taking a break.../Quitting a Fandom

So, it has been a while since I posted anything on any site. There are a few reasons for this, but mostly, I just have to much going on, well going wrong, in life to keep up with stuff. I need to start focusing on the future instead of worrying about the past. I want to buckle down and build something of my life. One of the things that I feel I need to do in order to handle this is step back/leave the furry fandom.

Since I joined the fandom in 2008, my life has changed a lot, some good and some bad, but I grew stronger through all of it. But as the years have gone on, I am slowly realizing I focus to much on being the person others see me as, instead of who I am. I have lost track of the inner me that makes me happy. But what does this have to do with the fandom. Well it has a little to do with the fandom, through the fandom i found my inner self, but also lost it at the same time. I need to step back and grow into myself before I am ready to be part of a fandom where every can be themselves. I feel like I am deceiving the fandom by showing a false face of myself. I also just plain don't like seeing or hearing about the drama 24/7 from friends, not while I am in this weird emotional state.

I love the fandom and all the good experiences that it has brought. But I have some serious "growing up" to do. I need to figure out my own life and get things back on track. So what does this mean for all my friends. Well seeing as how almost all of my friends are in the fandom, I am not sure what is going to happen. I may keep in touch, I may not. We may chat and meet up or we might not see each other for years. I truly dont know how this is going to effect our relationship. But I love all my friends, I always enjoy hanging out with all of you, and I know how much all of you support me. I want to be the best I can so I can support you too.

So, I am not sure if this is going to be a break, or a straight up quit from the fandom. But seeing that it is the biggest distraction on my mind and the source of many past issues, it is one step in figuring my life out.
This means, I will also probably be a lot less active online, if I am online at all.

Thank you for reading this little rant/journal of mine,

Alex